the local art market finished 2 days ago and it already felt like months have passed!!!!!! post-con blues hitting me hard as i return to the office ...

with the amount of vlogs that i've been watching lately -- specifically hannah witton's -- i've been toying with the idea of vlogging myself

mmmmmHHHHH perhaps not! perhaps i will, it seems fun when it's more low-stakes

thinking about making information that i think i'll need in the future more accessible, rather than consider whether it'll continue to be relevant to me down the line (would it be worth keeping it still?)

having the option just appeals to me, i guess!

rediscovered she will never be big by ff00ff, an absolute banger of a song that i first listened to on cohost

j and i watched kpop demon hunters yesterday! my fave character was mira, his was zoey

the song "what it sounds like" tugged both of our heartstrings

how convenient to not bring my sketchbook to work on a day when i find myself brimming with ideas to draw !!!

(there's loose paper everywhere, so perhaps it isn't too bad)

i wonder what other scents i can experience at home! just tried the peach, carob, and rose petals tea from a set J shared with me and mom, it was lovely

yesterday's sadness was a surprise. in its attempt to linger, i sat down with it (begrudgingly)

been listening to the Packed to the Gills OST on repeat for a while now! a definite mood lifter. my favorite is Level 3 - Scallop Session

a subtle yet lingering sense of anxiety looms over me this morning; i want to devour it

woke up to the sound of cats yowling outside my apartment; i was very pleased with the fact that it's already the weekend, and i can safely go back to sleep

woke up with a start an hour later (it's still friday)

what a rollercoaster of a day; at the end of it all, i'm happy it's part of my lived experience

i feel like the answer to solving my problem (re: why doesn't the background and border color change for the details tag) should be obvious, but for now it isn't!!!

currently in the middle of something that feels overwhelming; may this bitterness not consume me

seems unfair to define the entire month as “bad” simply because of a few select bad days. there’s the need to constantly remind myself of the bigger picture

before logging off, J shared that in his neko atsume 2 game, he renamed the cat “Tubbs” to “Snorlax”; i can definitely see the resemblance!

the past week felt like going through mud: slow and messy. it’s a combination that leaves me with moments of panic, frustration, and overwhelm (i hope this week is slightly better)

there are downsides to working remotely; my most pressing concern is being unable to greet the neighbor’s cat who visits our office sometimes

my partner installed neko atsume 2 as soon as he realized i was playing the sequel (he installed the first game initially; now he plays both)

we can visit each other's yards! i love it

on the way home from a friend’s house, a father and pre-school daughter sat next to me.

she whispered to her dad, “i have a surprise for you.” her dad asked what it was, and she let out a loud fart inside the van. (i did not hold back a giggle)

read veronique's mailing zines + sketchbook things, where she mentioned reading...

Anaïs Nin a sea of lies by Léonie Bischoff, and it fascinated me, so i decided to look for more info on...

Anais Nin herself; i saw she died from ...

cervical cancer, and that scared me, and i remembered that there were...

free cervical screening and vaccination efforts in my city last year, and so i went to check if there are any initiatives for 2025. so far there are no announcements

cohost.org now redirects to the wayback machine…you had a good run, eggbug

it was surprising to realize my panic when i couldn't access this platform (along with the frantic clearing of cache to no avail)

but the relief from seeing it load again was even more so!

thank you For Melon - Mint Chip from the Sex Advice Succubus OST for existing (and also for making me hyper-focus on my tasks for the last 8 hours today i am delighted!!!)

it feels weird to work on a thing all day and still end up with said thing not being finished yet; even making progress feels like "wasted time" somehow

edit on 12-12-24: even having the expectation that there will be revisions didn't soften the frustration i felt when i received actual revisions

the obvious solution would be to do my work at 100%!! so i have a 0% chance of going back to it!!! it's my present self's problem that she's currently able to do things at only 40% these days

my partner shared that the banana i gave him earlier tasted savory; the fact that he brought it up 20 mins later is strangely endearing to me

today's level of anxiety may be awful, but i'm making progress with my commissions! onwards to my 2nd biggest fear yet (aka backgrounds)

on a positive note, i love how the characters turned out

edit: i used up 90% of my energy for the foreground, and it's a bit funny to see the remaining background layers becoming progressively worse